Sunday, October 4, 2009
Everything will be so different when I'm on the stage tonight.So my worry, for some reason, is my work ethic. I seem to be motivated for the wrong reasons and just dread some days. Maybe I'm being overworked? Maybe I'm not adjusting well? I don't know. But I'm keeping my head up because this Wednesday, I'll be in the same room as Meryl Streep. Yuh. Ya heard me right. I'm so fucking hyped for this.. it still feels like it's not going to happen to me. But what will happen once that day is over? For an optimistic person, I know I won't ever come into contact with my favourite actress. Ever. It's just another fact.
So in the next few days I'm going to have to set my shit down and think real hard. Because instant gratification never lasts long (hence the term instant.) and I've been aiming for that a lot recently. I have to think of what to work for, when to work for it, and why I'm working for it. Because why do something for no reason? Where's the fun in that? It's like having a nice Miranda Priestly: No fun. No interest. No point.
That's all.
Labels: *life, *my day, *personal, *school, *weekend, movie: the devil wears prada
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Well, my skirt hasn't arrived yet. Probably since it's only been two days. Sigh. I think 8 more to go, max. But good thing is I got my schedule for Grade 11 yesterday! And here goes:Semester 1
Math - University
Physics - University
Lunch
Leadership
World Religions
Semester 2
Chemistry - University
English - University
Lunch
Communications & Techonology
Dramatic Arts
Okay well now.. I'm thinking of a couple things. Maybe I should take Summer School for either Math or Physics? I really want a spare in 1st Sem. No one I know is taking Physics anyways : Either way, I'm still gonna have to bust my butt; just at different times. Also, how about switchign to enriched English? Eh. I might have some teachers I don't want to be my teacher. I really love English, but if I get a crappy teacher, I know I won't enjoy it. But I do know for a fact that Paniccia is teaching Second Semester 2nd Period Enriched English, not University. So I can easily switch it without my schedule getting messed up. But do I seriously want to switch to a harder class just for the teacher? Gotta think about that. Ugh. Fuck Grade 11. But sadly I can't move on without going through Grade 11. Boo hoo. I'll be doing another play with Jack and Arangio, and hopefully Paniccia. So that's something to look forward to. And GNG as well! Kwell, I don't wanna be a Debbie Downer.
I gotta stop procrastinating and start studying for my History Exam tomorrow. Wish me luck?
Labels: *english class, *GNG, *school, *teachers
Monday, June 8, 2009
she's going crazy: almiraK this post is going nowhere. So I'm gone. Except the fact that janine is KEWL! i luv u cawleen! from
JA
LOL AS I WAS SAYING. Except the fact that Ms. Lucciola is telling people to answer questions they didn't do. Including me. Mwhaah. K now we're watching youtube videos of Pierre Truedau (sp?) How ever you spell his name. Truedau mania my ass. :
Labels: *friends, *history class, *school, *teachers
Friday, May 22, 2009
you push me when i really need a friend.Trying to be positive, I did some work in History class today! I'm being progressive! I'm proud of myself. Lately I've been having trouble going to school because of my laziness. Watching Mona Lisa Smile can really make a difference in my atittude, surprisingly. And that's when I asked Ms. Jack for something. I asked her if she could be my reason to go to school. I have nothing else to go for, so I asked her, and she said yes. :) All I have to do every morning now is go to the drama room and touch base with her to let her know I'm in school.
And omg. I've found my love for Madonna and Desperate Housewives again! OMG, seriously. I'm tired of doing that depressed shit on my diary. So let's try and be positive! I know it won't last long, but this keeps me going through the day.
Labels: *friends, *history class, *school, *teachers, movie: mona lisa smile, star: madonna, tv show: desperate housewives
Thursday, May 14, 2009
just believe in what my lips have to say.I don't know what's happening to me right now. I'm slacking off in everything. Today I had to force myself to get up and go to school more than ever. I didn't study for my math test today. My marks are slowly declining, and I haven't talked to the Misses: Arangio, Jack and Paniccia. Ms. Jack has disappeared for no reason! I haven't gotten in touch with her for about a week now and I miss her! I sent her a text last night telling about it though, so hopefully she got that.
In grade nine, I was an uptight girl who isolated herself. I never did any activites and always focused on my work. Now, in grade ten, I'm a girl who doesn't wanna do her work and go out all the time and make new friends. I've become the complete opposite. So how are grades eleven and twelve gonna be? That's what I don't know. I'm not afraid to recognize what's wrong with me and fix it. I've recognized it, but how do I fix it?
Labels: *life, *school, random: sims 2
Thursday, April 9, 2009
you must walk it for yourself.BITCH. GGGG in English, mother fucker! I don't mind anyways, I don't care much for that class. But I guess I'm doing well in everything else. So, just to say, here's my marks:
HISTORY: 83%
CIVICS: 84%
ENGLISH: 87%
MATH: 83%
AVERAGE: 84.3%
So this means I have to keep my marks up, especially in History, Math and English. Instead of Civics class, it's being switched to Careers half way through the semester since it's only half a credit each. Kso, I gotta be focused.
P.S: You need to finish your poem for English and keep practising with the fans for the rehearsal today. Also, ask if you can go to Allison's 16th this Saturday. Beign collage for audition on Tuesday, OH AND STUDY FOR MATH QUIZ IN 4TH. Thanks for reminding me Almira!
Oh and my Lola's finally getting out of the hospital today! ♥
Labels: *civics class, *english class, *history class, *math class, *rehearsals, *school, random: hospital, random: report card
Thursday, April 2, 2009
uh oh.Labels: *school
Monday, March 30, 2009
and baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun.In the meantime, Almira's to my right, freaking out. Our presentation for Civics is in 2 periods, equivalent to about 3 hours. *breathes in, breathes out* I should stop procrastinating. Toodles.
Still confused/pissed off.
Labels: *civics class, *history class, *school
Thursday, March 26, 2009
we have got it made like ice cream topped with honey, but we got no money.Rambling here. Today at rehearsal I was dead. Completely. I just saw stares shooting at me from my teachers as to what the hell was going on with me. I was crying the other night making my eyes puffy. So that made them close more so it looked like I was sleepy. "Everything okay there? Are you getting enough sleep?" They ask me. I nod my head lazily. See, I want to tell them what's going on right now. I want to tell them what's making me so confused and so out of place, but I would like to figure this out for myself for once. This distance thing from them, pulling away is killing me. I hate just talking to them about something casual then not going into what really matters.
I'm not much as to teased by telling them, but with this situation I've been asked not to tell anyone about it specifically. I don't know if I can keep this promise because those three ladies are basically my eyes when it comes to being optimistic. How can I be optimistic in a situation when the people teaching me aren't in on it?
Eh, I'll think about this over the weekend. I need to get some rest for tomorrow! Big day of guest speakers and a conference far, far, away from school.. for the whole day. But I will miss my homegirls Janine and Almira!
Labels: *family, *friends, *school, *school play, *teachers, random: conference
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
oh, what was I thinking?I have the weirdest dreams, and it's not even funny. Weird as in like "What the fuck was that about?" Yes. Really what the fuck was that about? I've been having dreams of the same person for nearly a week. Sometimes it's the same, sometimes it's different. And no, not fantasies, but just dreams that are out there. Like I'm being told something. The odd thing is that the person in my dream is someone I wouldn't even dream about. That's why I feel so awkward around them whenever I have rehearsals and we're in the same room. Rehearsals are twice a week, plus some out of the blue ones as well. Did I forget to mention they're older than me. Like over 10 years older.
We're taking up the homework now. Gonna pretend I did it and I'll be back with another ramble.
Labels: *dreams, *rehearsals, *school